Without further ado, this is:
The Shadow
I wake with something approaching
surprise. A headache pounds through me, seemingly running through my
whole body before retreating back into my cranium and finally fading
to a dull ache in my right temple.
For a second, something seems to fill
my hand. Something heavy, not just with physical weight but emotion
as well. Then I clench my hand, and it's gone.
I glance around. Sepia tones surround
me, like an ancient photograph brought to life. I lay in a
nondescript bed, surrounded by others, all perfectly made with
something approaching agonizing detail. And all unoccupied. Tables
with sharp implements shine, as best they can in the strange light,
underneath lamps that do nothing to light my space. I flick the
switch on one, then inspect it to find the bulb broken.
What has happened? The last thing I
remember is...
What is the last thing I remember?
I lift myself to my feet. My feet are
bare, but not cold against the clean tile. I turn towards the door.
And I nearly fall as a wave of nausea
and pain overcome me, once again emanating from my forehead. I take a
moment to steady myself against the bed before setting out once more.
This time I make it through the door. I
wobble slightly as I look around the hall. No one is there to greet
me. Door after door instead catch my gaze. A map is placed upon the
wall opposite my room. I cross to it.
A title at the top of the paper tells
me I'm in a hospital. Yet there's no one here?
Has the world ended and left me behind?
Or... I shudder. Have I ended and left the world behind?
I glance around wildly. 'Is anyone
there?' I try to call out, but my voice doesn't make a sound in the
desolate halls and no one answers. I wait a second anyway.
Nothing.
There isn't anything for me here. I
turn back to the map. I doubt it is the first time in my existence
I've done so, but I curse its maker as I try to trace my way through
it with my finger. Finally I think I have found the way out.
My heart drops for no reason. I look
around, trying to find the source of the dread I feel. But nothing
moves in the faded yellow of the halls. I back away, terrified. I
turn and flee, a hand upon the wall to steady myself.
A cool mist is falling as I leave the
hospital. Not rain, nothing so separate as individual drops, simply a
constant cloud that is drawn inexorably down.
It feels good against my skin, calming me. I turn back as I make my
way down the road from the building. It sits, by itself, foreboding
and seemingly brooding, upon a hill.
Something
catches my eye as I turn back away. Something finally moves in the
second story, blotting out window after window as it makes its way
down, following the same path I took. I wait, an expectant hope
blossoming in me. A minute passes.
And
then the dread returns. I retreat from the hospital as something
seems to press against me, forcing me down. My breathing quickens and
then explodes in my chest as my follower passes the door. I turn and
run.
Only
once do I look back, to reassure myself of what I had seen. It is
true. A cloud of pure darkness pursues me, billowing and shivering
under the falling mist. I don't know what is inside, or if anything
is, but I know its sole purpose, its only reason to exist, is to hurt
me. Now I run without a second thought.
The
city is silent around me. Buildings stretch tall into the sky, which
is a strange mix of night and day. It is too dark to be day, despite
a disc in the sky that I think is the sun. Even windows refuse to
have reflections, only a dull sheen that neither gives away their
inhabitants, nor the world outside them.
I lost
the shadow shortly ago in the complex weave of civilization. Neither
of us, apparently, can make sense of the sprawl and spread of
society, how the streets wander and interconnect without sense or
purpose. My only guiding light is a pull, a slight tension in my mind
that seems to draw me somewhere.
The
shadows begin to deepen as I travel further away from the hospital. I
don't know why, as the sun isn't going down and the only clouds are
the ones that skip across the sky at a dozen times their normal
speed.
Once
again, I feel it before I see it. The shadow peeks out from within an
alleyway. It watches me for a minute. Then, without realizing it, I
am running. And it is chasing me.
Once
again, I have evaded the darkness. In a sense. The non-moving shadows
still surround me, brought on by a distinct absence of light that is
threatening to drown me as it deepens to black.
The
city ends abruptly, mid-building. Literally. I can see where some
have been cut in half. Inside, life stands still with no humans to
run it. Televisions are frozen, little more than glorified picture
frames. Chairs sit unfilled while beds are alternatively in disarray
or a state of perfection.
I stop
at the border between city and wasteland. Something almost tangible
seems to separate the two, a spider's web spun across a hundred miles
of society's triumph. I pause for only a second as, closer now, I
feel the shadow approach. Too scared to face that which I don't
understand, I push through the nonexistent web. I cross...
And
immediately collapse. My eyes fill with color. A room sits in
disarray around me. A chair beneath me, a table in front of me,
something in my hand, some thought in my head.
The
vision breaks into brightly lit streamers that flow away from me. I
gasp as the implications of what it meant hit me. I force it away,
driving myself into action. I have to run. Escape the shadow that
even now is drawing upon my unprotected back. I jump forward, feeling
the ground shake as the darkness slams down, barely missing me. I
keep moving, running with a fervor that I doubt I ever had before.
I
doubt that I will be able to stop this time.
I
don't know how long passes. A while. Still I flee. Despite my speed,
which I know is inhuman, the shadow keeps pace, unhurried, unworried.
The
landscape that I pass through is alien. Elm trees grow larger than
any I have seen before, taller than the buildings of the city I left
behind. They grow in sporadic copses, sometimes only a few thick,
other times stretching farther than I can see.
Likewise,
there is the occasional building. Lighthouses illuminate giant
swathes of the land with each sweep of their giant lenses. And in
juxtaposition, there are buildings that do the opposite, stealing the
light from the world a little at a time. I avoid their lightless
areas with a terrified passion.
And
through it all, strange creatures roam. Alien things with horns and
wings and hooves and halos. I feel nothing from them except a strange
interest that scares me. Like the darkhouses, I stay away from them
all.
No
longer can I argue that I may be alive. I doubt the ability of the
strongest drug on earth to give me these visions.
The
mist has finally condensed to rain. The drops seem to reduce the
world to only what I can touch, the trees uniform and indistinct
while light and dark blur by. And through it all, I can feel the
Shadow closing.
In the
distance, a sound of massive movement echoes toward me. Water.
Through a break in the falling drops, I see a massive river that
seems like it could cut the world in half. Instantly, I know this is
my destination.
But
the Shadow knows it too. Now it draws even closer, trying to catch me
as I pour on another burst of speed.
The river draws near.
I
lower my head to try and gain even more speed.
The
Shadow reaches out and I duck, nearly falling. But the River is so
close!
And
then I am gone. Or back. In my room. Not the hospital, but in life.
Or am I? I move without wanting to. Terror fills me.
A gun
is in my hand. A box of bullets on the table in front of me. A dark
cloud seems to hang over me as I load the cylinders in the chamber. I
reach out to stop myself as, without looking, I place the gun to my
head and...
And I
fall, rolling and tumbling and rolling some more. I fall onto my
stomach, only a few feet from the River. I know that if I can cross
it, I will be free. But I can't rise. I gasp as I look back.
The
Shadow, no, I know now, Life seems to fill the horizon. It rushes at
me, eager to catch me, to put me back in my cage.
I have
to run, have to escape. But there is no escape. Not from this. The
Shadow of Life overtakes me, drowning me in dark fog struck through
with flashes of lightning. I feel it lift me, move me, then we are
flying. Through the wasteland of Half-Life, over the city, through
the streets and up the drive of the hospital. It throws me into my
room before, finally, it retreats.
My
eyes ache as the sepia tones of death fade, shimmer, and finally pop
back into pastels. The hospital comes to life around me.
Nurses
and doctors swarm around my bed like moths to a flame. But I feel no
pleasure from their presence. Somehow, these brightened halls are
even darker than their unlife counterparts. I close my eyes, hoping
to sink back into that afterworld. But all that greets me are dreams
too bright to gaze into.
The
Shadow Of Life //END//
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